Rough time

Yo everyone

Rough time last couple days. I said I would end the month up pretty easily. It probably won’t happen like promised. I lost close to 16k in the last 4 days.

At the beginning, I decided to take a small shot at plo1k (games were very soft) but I literally got crushed. Not that I played bad (probably by the end, I admit) but I ran terribly and could not force myself to quit the games (which is understandable when you are sit with 4 fishs and 1 reg on each of your 6 tables).

This episode highlighted one thing : I have some serious issues with my self control. More I lose, more I play and this is wrong. Big issue requieres big fix : instead of turning off my laptop and take a walk I self exluded myself for 24 hours on stars. It ends today but I probably won’t play much til tomorrow.

Also, this downswing affects my bankroll. I’m not broke – yet – but for the first time ever, I have a bankroll problem. So what ? It was not to be easy when I decided to go pro and I read every pro has been broke at least once. But still, this swing seems to be affecting me, my confidence, more than ever. Maybe because I just started to play PLO. I’m going to force myself not to play more than nl/pl400 until I rebuild a roll which is going to be hard but I’ll do my best. This is it for my poker mindset of the week.

I still don’t know what I’m gonna do next year. I have ideas but nothing set in the stone. I would like to move in another country but I don’t know 1) where 2) with who. Thailand ? Las vegas ? Anywhere else ? I still have a couple month to plan that. My criteriums : cheap and nice girls, that’s it.

In France, there is this summer reality show called Secret story. This is the third season and it’s the first one I assiduously watch. Usually, I don’t really like this kind of show but it’s actually very entertaining. The concept is easy but efficient : stereotyp guys (the black gay –ish- guy, the long blond hair “ken” guy who has sex with the big boobs “Barbie” girl…) living together in a house recorded 24/24. It seems this year, the game is on and there is a ton of strategy and engineering. I really enjoy watching daily episodes and it definitely is taking part of my daily life, as much as poker.

I’m done for today.

Robin, live from the train from Rennes. By the way, the more I take the train, the more I think our railway in France is very good : quiet fast and cheap (unlike Netherlands where they are slow and ugly).